Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Photos from last week

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We are back to just five and I miss our two extras.
We talk about Saturday and my kids say "that was the day Mommy cried"

Today was better, my soul at rest, surrendered.
I'm thankful that these littles were able to go back to their daddy
and I cuddle and snuggle my own littles in between the moments crazy.

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Wednesday, November 20, 2013

A beautiful whirlwind


Today I brought home two children.

A three year old and a six week old.

A friendly play date to visit with a friend who has had a few rough weeks turned into watching her kids for a few hours turned into watching them for a few days. It's been a whirlwind. This is for sure. 

My friend is suffering from the worst post partum depression I have ever heard of - her bravery in this moment is beautiful, her husband's care for her is breathtaking. 

In this moment, over the exhaustion of caring for now seven children and heartbreak for my friend, there is this gratitude. This feeling like everything in the last year has led me to this moment - this being at the perfectly right place at just the right time. Watching my husband playfully demand to hold the baby. Feeling his strength, just because he is home. Working as a team - on the same page, working together.

So I'm a little bit terrified of the sleepless night ahead of me. I'm facing all of those irrational fears that come along with having a new baby in the house. I'm overwhelmed with this whole bottle-feeding thing - so if you think of me, pray for me. I'm going to need it!

Now I get to live my advice. Today I had to let another friend into my mess - as I reached out for some help today. I realize I'm seriously going to have to practice what I preach. Ask for help. Be real. LIVE community, not just speak it. 

Tonight as I was feeding the baby and setting my alarm for a middle of the night bottle I prayed that this would be a short dark blip in a long beautiful story. I am so glad to be even just a little part of it. 
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Monday, November 18, 2013

Recipe: White Chicken Chili

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Now and then I daydream about being a food blogger. I'd fill my food blog with amazing recipes made from simple ingredients. Those are some of my favorite blogs to browse, with my "pin it" button at the ready so I can pin it to my "maybe one day I'll try this, but probably not" board otherwise known as "beautiful food"

The reality, however is that I'm not that much of a cook, I randomly throw things together that sometimes turn out great and occasionally are barely edible. And with this blog not terribly high on my list of priorities at the moment and the amount of time it takes to develop a recipe, photograph it and blog it - posting recipes is probably not something I'll be able to do regularly for awhile. But a couple of my Facebook friends asked for the recipe - so instead of posting a recipe-adjacent status update I thought I'd do a proper recipe blog post with a proper recipe.

Today it is actually pretty hot here in the Augusta area, nearly 80 degrees. So as I'm making this chili wearing a tank top, with my hair pulled up off my neck and my fan on high I'm kind of laughing at myself for choosing today to make this.

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I'm making this particular batch for a friend of mine. This dish carries well, reheats great, simmers on the stove well (and could possibly be converted to a crock pot recipe) or whips up in a jiffy. I like to add leftovers to quesadillas or I'll wrap it up in a tortilla as a burrito.

This recipe is basically copied from the back of the white chicken chili seasoning packet plus black beans and corn. I know black beans are not typically included in a white chili recipe, however I think black beans and corn are just the perfect pair and I try to throw them into whatever I can.

I like to use Cannellini beans - they are white kidney beans and just a few cents more expensive than other white beans like great northern beans. I like using them a lot. I also like using frozen corn instead of canned - I think it tastes fresher. Some other things you could throw into this: queso cheese, canned tomatoes, corn & bean salsa.

This is what you'll need for this recipe:
Chicken
McCormick white chicken chili seasoning mix
A can of white beans
A can of black beans
a bag of frozen corn

Optional:
Chicken broth (about 12ozs)
Shredded cheese
Sour cream
Rice
Also - you'll need a little oil for your pan

Step 1: trim chicken breasts & dice into approximately 1 inch cubes
Step 2: heat large pot on stove over high heat, drizzle a little oil in the bottom of the pain (about 1Tb)
Step 3: cook chicken in oil until they are no longer pink.
Step 4: add frozen corn & chicken broth bring to simmer.
I usually prepare my rice to the side - so that the kids can have a lot of rice with a little chili and the hubs can have a lot of chili with a little rice. However, you can also add the rice at this point. Add 1 cup of rice & 2 cups water. Once you've added the beans and brought to a simmer, reduce the heat and cover. Simmer for about 20 minutes or until the rice is cooked through.
Step 5: Add the white beans & seasoning packet
Step 6: Drain, rinse and add the black beans
Be sure to rinse them well or your chili will be quite black!
Let it simmer, stirring now and then until it's good and hot and then serve with shredded cheese and if you like, sour cream.

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The ingredients pictured above cost right at about $15 (minus a little change) you could reduce the expense of this meal by using a whole chicken (or none at all), use water instead of chicken broth and not add cheese.

worship song of the week

I had a whole different post ready for this morning... but there is this song we have been singing at church recently that I just love. I finally recorded a little bit of it on my cell phone so I could look it up when I got home. This is that song. It's from All Sons and Daughters and it's called "Great Are You Lord" and my favorite line is "it's your breath in our lungs so we pour out praise to You only"



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Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Worship song of the week

I have been busy writing about other things lately - and posting lots of videos with posts that I temporarily forgot about doing a worship song of the week this week - but as I was laying awake this morning I realized the perfect song for this week. This song has been my heart cry for the past couple of weeks as I've struggled with temptation, weakness and failure, as I've fallen on God's power and leaned into Him, and as I've reaped a harvest of blessings in obedience this song has been a sweet reminder through it all that in the highs and lows God I need you! 




P.S. the female backup on this song is Audrey Assad - I posted a song from her on this day

Click here to see past worship song of the week posts

Click here for my YouTube playlist 

Monday, November 11, 2013

NEW photography class!!


For the first time ever I am offering an in-person photography class!!! It has been a long time coming and I can not wait to get started. Each session will offer something for everyone with a special focus on learning how to use your Digital SLR camera.

Each week I will explain one principle of photography 
that you can apply to every picture you take 
no matter what kind of camera you have 
PLUS one feature of your DSLR camera 
to help you to make the move from auto 
to manual shooting mode. 
There will be a PDF tutorial for each week, 
two assignments 
and daily optional prompts. 
And my favorite part:
we'll get together at my house
 to go over the tutorial, 
answer any questions you might have 
and practice what we've learned. 

This is a something for everyone class - you don't have to have any experience or previous knowledge about your camera or photography to participate in this class but I've also added a couple of more challenging assignments for more photography savvy participants. 

Click here to read what previous students have said about my online classes.

I'm offering registration for two upcoming sessions: a November/December session to be held on Saturday mornings 10am-noon on November 16 & 23 and December 13 & 20 OR You can save a spot in my Friday morning session which will be held on Friday mornings January 17 through February 7. 

Registration is limited to 10 participants for each session! 
Registration fee is $20

REQUIRED: Click here to register
OPTIONAL:  Pay your registration fee online to reserve your spot!
You can also pay in person by cash or check.


which class?


P.S. Children are welcome - my kids will probably be there most weeks also Anjelica and her children will be hanging out with us especially to help out with any kid - but you'll probably get more out of the class if you can leave them at home. 

Answered prayers

This morning as I was going about my day I realized that today feels like a huge answer to years of prayer. I can not tell you how often I have prayed that God would direct my days and especially how I spend my time - only to spend how many days on what feels like nothing. 

Lately I have had growing clarity about the season I'm in right now. It's a quiet season - with not a lot going on, but it's been a powerful season. I have had growing convictions about how I will and won't spend my time and I have found as I have cleared my calander and taken one step of obedience after the next that God has blessed these days. From writing encouraging notes to friends (and writing on this blog!) to play dates with the same few people, cultivating relationships. Serving and giving. Being available. These are what makes the days feel glorious. 


I read this summer, in a book by Anne Morrow Lindbergh called "Gifts from the Sea" that women have no problem being "poured out" we will give and give and give - the problem is when we pour ourselves out and it feels like it's all going down the drain. Then it's easy to get discouraged.

I relate so strongly to that. I pour myself out over and over but so many days it feels like I pour myself out and it goes right down the drain. I give and give and give to empty, life - sucking nothingness. A pursuit of money or attention, seeking comfort and my own happiness over everything else. Or just good old-fashioned distraction.

Sometimes this is only feeling or a perception about something that is, in reality, hugely important - like the early years of my kids lives - it feels a lot like nothing, but in reality it is a lot of small things adding up to the formation of character, which is huge. 

This moment, right here - this Ebenezer, this "God has brought me this far and I will praise him!" moment. I want to take this moment, share it with you and encourage you - wherever you are, whatever you are praying for that God is a God who answers prayer. Not always in the way we had hoped, rarely in the time we thought he should but prayer is ALWAYS answered. 

So here in this moment of clarity I want to testify that God is faithful! He is good. He answers prayer. 

Friday, November 8, 2013

Weakness, vulnerability & influence



This week has been hard.

I won't say awful because there were some amazing moments, and I won't say horrible because even though I've had headaches all week and those were horrible it wasn't that either, 
I'll just say it's been hard. 
Physically hard, emotionally all over the place, a spiritual struggle. 
Hard.

Today I posted on Instagram about my struggle, and it started me thinking about the conversations I've had with a lot of different women throughout this week who are going through their own, unique week of hard. Over and over again I've talked to other moms who are struggling with one thing or another. All of us are exhausted. Physically & emotionally maxed out.


So I was driving around this morning, running my errands, and I was thinking about the importance of showing our mess. It's the opposite of what feels natural - I want other people to see me as someone who has it all together but I need people to see me as someone who struggles, just like we all do. I need to be a part of a community of women who are not afraid of allowing others into our mess. Whatever that is.


As someone who is a small group co-leader and has a little influence and especially as a mom who has older kids I need to be willing to show other people, especially younger moms, that I don't have it all together, that I have bad days. Not just as a pat on the shoulder or as a strategy to appear more approachable but as a living breathing walking around example that yes - I'm a mess, just like you. I have bad days, just like you. I struggle with my kids and get mad at my husband - but we're going to be okay. 


Here is the thing I find the most challenging about the idea of letting other people see my mess: it is not going to just happen. I have to live this way on purpose I have to let my guard down and talk about the things that make me feel uncomfortable and vulnerable and that takes a lot of intentionality.

It also takes grace. Because we've all been around the negative nelly who has no problem talking about everything that's going wrong in her life - we desperately don't want to be her but we aren't doing much better if we put on the plastic face of everything is fine and nothing is ever wrong in my world and heavens no I never struggle with that. Let's be real. Yes, I do. 

I want to be the kind of friend who is honest about struggle, but isn't defined by it. I want to be the kind of friend who is real, even if that means admitting the thing that I don't want to even admit to myself. I want to be the kind of person who is speaks truth but also speaks grace, even if it means letting go of my insane desire for everyone to like everything I do all the time. 


It's a lot about taking off "the church face" mask, it's a lot about not just saying "I need grace" in some type of abstract way but knowing, deeply, truly, desperately I NEED grace!!! Just like we all do.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Why: Coffee, hunger & the in between

I don't know if I've mentioned it here before but about the time I started the Bible study on idols I felt like God asked me to step away from the amount of coffee I have been drinking. It's something I love, rely on, get comfort from, can't go a day without - and it was time to take a step back. I don't think there is anything inherent in coffee-drinking that's unspiritual or somehow ungodly - it was just what God was asking me, personally, to do - a simple practice to symbolize a deeper reality.

The first few days were harder than I thought it would be, I found myself longing for it's comfort, crying out to God  what are we doing here?! but somehow in this practice I found blessing. Surprising, unexpected blessings.

Then I found excuses.

I spent a week or two saying things to myself like "well, I'm on my period this week, so I need a little extra help" or "I didn't finish my first cup so this cup doesn't count". Coming face to face with the sneakiness of my own sin nature is not pleasant but getting back into the path of blessing and trusting God that somewhere in this there is blessing, that is worth it. Believing that there is a deeper principle that God is trying to demonstrate to me with something physical, tangible and measurable. My other idols are a lot more slippery.

I wrote the other day about my bad food choices, and how I've been going around all day hungry and dissatisfied. Today I realized part of that is because I'm used to filling that space with coffee. I'm used to drinking coffee all day and maybe, or maybe not, eating. Now the coffee has been taken away and the poor choices that have been there all along are now glaringly obvious. 

Notice any similarity here with the idols in our lives? Yeah - me too. Wow. Thank you God for using something so simple and tangible to teach me something intangible and eternal. I don't even notice my lack of God because I'm filling the space up with nothing. Not bad stuff necessarily just the busy, empty stuff and the too-much-of-a-good-thing stuff. 

So I'm asking God to take away my taste for coffee, sitting here drinking my green smoothie and surrendering to his ways, that I honestly don't understand right here, right now. And asking Him to take away my taste for my idols one step, one day at a time.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Why? Exhaustion Part 2


Yesterday I wrote about exhaustion and how it is sometime a huge obstacle to coming to God. Yesterday I purposefully didn't offer any "tips" because it's important to just come, as I am, in my mess, whenever for however long I can - this is a relationship. Today, however, I wanted to offer some practical encouragement. 

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. 
(Romans 8:35, 38, 39 ESV)
Nothing can separate me from the love of God. Not angels or deamons, tribulation or persecution and definitely not my crazy-beautiful exhausting life. No. If there is nothing in all of space and time that can sperarate me from God then I am without excuse when it comes to my day by day. Even in all my distraction and mess God is still my everything. 

So how do I live the "come" in my busy life right now? I wrote down some ideas - these are meant only to encourage and inspire you that it is possible to get lots of encouragement in your every day whatever that day is like. If you begin to feel the creep of condemnation remember to look at it for what it is - remind it of God's word:

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. (Romans 8:1 ESV)

and move on. Pick one thing. Do that one thing every day, and if you miss a day do it the next day. Eventually you'll build a habit and habits have a snowball effect - one good habit attracts another good habit and another and another until down the line you have a life you could not dare to imagine from the place you're in. Or maybe this will help buttrice the practices you already have in place. I was so encouraged and challenged about the pockets in my day that I have to spend with God.

What can you do?

How do you start your day? I am not a morning person. I've tried the whole "get up early to have your quiet time" thing and it did not work for me. However there are other ways to begin the day with God. I have a friend who encouraged my small group to listen to a chapter of the Bible as you begin your day you can use an app like the YouVersion Bible app, or online you can buy an audio version of your favorite translations. Or listen to worship music as you start your day. Create a playlist or channel with quiet early morning music (I love Christy Nockles and Adie Camp for this) or  high-energy blast-me-out-of-bed music like Brit Nichole. Can you hang your memory verses on the mirror to work on while you dry your hair? 

Do you visit the gym? If this is your prime time away from the kids try to think about what you can do to also make this a time to spend with God. I have tried lots of different things some worked better than others. I love some great high-energy worship music for pounding out the treadmill. Lincoln Bruster's greatest hits was my power jam (am I dating myself here?) and I had a couple other albums (also Big Daddy Weave) on my iPod that got me through my workout in a more worshipful frame of mind. You could also try listening to sermons. You can subscribe to podcasts to listen to while you work out or again you could try to listen to the Bible at the gym. 

What do you listen to while you drive? Is there something more encouraging you could be listen to? What do you listen to while you walk? Could it be scripture songs, hymns or worship music? What do you listen to when you clean? Turn off the TV, turn on the worship music! Or could you listen to a sermon while you fold the laundry? My church publishes sermons in video format, maybe that would be easier to focus on than just an audio. You can also find a lot of your favorite teachers on YouTube. If you're caught up on recent sermons try going back and listening to past series. I have a friend who listens to the Psalms while she folds laundry, and once again, you could listen to the Bible while you dust or wash dishes (I'm thinking I could listen to the whole Bible in way less than a year if I did this!!) I have tried printing out passages of scripture to meditate on while I wash dishes, you could tape a bunch of verses you are wanting to memorize or pray for yourself or your family or particular friends you are interceding for, or on a particular topic or a whole Psalm or a chapter of the Bible, you could also tape some scripture cards up on the inside of your kitchen cabinets if they become too familiar swap them out for some new ones. 

When do you have a quiet time? This is a tricky topic, because during the changing seasons of life this time (and format) has changed a lot for me. My favorite time to have a quiet time is after everyone is up, dressed & fed. The Hubs is off to work and the day is getting started. I'd sit my little ones down for their half hour of TV time and I'd sit in the other room and read my Bible and journal my prayers. This is my "start of the day" like a first fruits offering of my time to The Lord. If I can get my quiet time in during this time I'm super happy. Another friend gets up with her husband and has her quiet time between the time that he leaves and her children wake up for the day. These days I typically do my quiet time during the first minutes of nap-time. Other times I've done it at the end of the day after everyone is in bed while the hubs is working on his end of day paperwork. If you are in a season of life when quiet times are becoming practically impossible (like when you have a fussy newborn baby!) I highly recommend the 1000 gifts daily devotional. You can download it right onto your smart phone into the Kindle app or order a hard copy. The daily readings are short, sweet and terrifically encouraging. I love it almost more than the book! Whatever time of day you choose, try to make it the same time every day. Be prepared - what works in one season of life isn't going to work in another and what works for one person might not work for another. 

Participate in a Bible Study this is one of my anchors in my walk with God. I have been in the same small group, with the same people for about two years. I've built a lot of closeness and trust during that time. It is so important to have this type of relationships. If you don't have this at your church either find some friends who can meet weekly for Bible study, join one that's already formed at your church or find one at another church you can be involved in. Online Bible studies are great but in-person are way better.  I have enjoyed the Bible studies I've done by Kelly Minter. I've also loved my Beth Moore Bible studies. Find a 1000 Gifts Bible study, or a MOPS Bible study group. 

Be intentional with social media this is the type of thing that can either suck a ton of time away from what you should be doing or it can become a source of tremendous incouragement! Follow people who post (and re-post) encouraging words & pictures. Go ahead unfollow, unlike or mute the people and pages who bring you down or distract. Seek out and find the people who lift you up. If one of your friends re-posts something encouraging go back to the source and follow them. Fill your Facebook news feed with encouragement! Same thing with Instagram & Twitter! 

Take smart naps. I'm a huge fan of naps. I am a better person when I've had time to decompress, rest and fall asleep for a bit but we've all had those days when we laid down for a nap and woke up sleepier, grumpier and more of a brain-eating zombie than when we laid down. A friend of mine told me that she usually takes short naps, she sits down in a chair or lays down and let's herself fall asleep for a few minutes, but when she wakes up she doesn't roll over to catch a few more minutes, she gets up! I have done this now and then and I've found it to be helpful. I usually will lay down with Eli in our bed for his afternoon nap and let myself fall asleep with him on the bed, I usually wake up maybe twenty minutes later or so and I get up, drink some OJ  (or eat a piece of chocolate) and start my afternoon. If I'm still sleepy I go sit in the sunshine while I drink a tall glass of water or a hot cup of tea. 

Don't get sucked into a TV habit. This one is hard for me, because I really enjoy and often look forward to that moment at the end of the day when I sit down, whatever I got done is done, whatever didn't get done isn't, I'm going to sit on the couch with my hubs and watch TV. I don't think there's anything wrong with that, unless you're willing to sacrifice your time with your Savior for your favorite show or if it becomes your all night, every night habit, and don't even get me started on those shows that don't even start till 10pm! Y'all this is what a DVR is for, (or Hulu, or Amazon Prime or Xfinity on demand or whatever on demand option you have from your cable provider) if exhaustion is your #1 reason for not being able to spend time with God but you're staying up until eleven or twelve every night - maybe there's the problem. This has been my problem. I've struggled to find a balance - to have the time with my hubs (and kids) watching TV (or reading blogs or editing photos) but not let it take over my life especially when it's the easiest thing to do.

Let's choose best over easiest

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Video for prev post

Here is the link for the song.

Why? Exhaustion

I had this post written on my phone yesterday but it didn't save/upload properly so when I went to tweak/publish it this morning it was gone so today you get the short version.



It's a good thing you can't die of brain fog. I'd be a goner for sure. I have these days when the ideas come fast and thick I can barely scribble them down fast enough and then a random thought comes and details the whole thing and the pot of ideas slowly simmering on the back burner spontaneously combusts. So yeah, that's where I am today - in a fog, in a funk. 

The season of life is just seriously crazy. My days can be nuts. While I'm cleaning up one mess my two year old is busy making  another - when my kids are all home it can be wall-to-wall craziness, or everyone snuggled on the couch together watching Master Chef Junior and the mine feels perfect - you just never know how it's going to be.

In small group this week we were sharing the why of not coming to God and one of my friends made a really excellent point - exhaustion. Because coming to God and sitting down with His word takes effort and it is seriously difficult to find that moment when we can be both still and have the mental and emotional energy to try to meet with God.

Yesterday I just sat on the back step in the sunlight, trying to get my head right and my heart ready for my kids to come blasting through the door. I put my head down, closed my eyes and soaked in to sunshine. I thought about on of my favorite verses:

"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28 NASB)

So I just came in all of my weariness and all of my mess - I laid it all out down at His feet and just came.

I'm glad God has written in His word about His special love and care for young moms. 

Like a shepherd He will tend His flock, In His arm He will gather the lambs And carry them in His bosom; He will gently lead the nursing ewes. (Isaiah 40:11 NASB)

Another translation is gently lead the mother sheep with her young

I love that He knows our weakness and our exhaustion. I love that He accepts us in all our mess - in my physical, mental & emotional exhaustion He still calls me. He doesn't expect me to get my act together first or only come if I can sit for a certain amount of time. I just come.

You know, yesterday I didn't hear the angels sing, I didn't see heaven open or even have a warm fuzzy feeling - I just waited for a few minutes and then stood up and loaded the dishwasher. I'm still in my funk but I'm going to continue trying to practice the come.

Continue reading: Why? Exhaustion Part 2

Monday, November 4, 2013

Worship Song of the Week

This is one of Katie-Abigail's favorite song. She loves to walk around signing "I come alive on God's great dance floor!" Watch this through towards the end it is super-fun to watch when Chris Tomlin calls DJ (at about  4:40) to dance with him. I've also posted Chris Tomlin's story behind the song and another awesome version of the song - just because.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Not what I'd planned

Today's post is not what I'd planned. 

I have a bunch of links I was wanting to share, cute ideas for fall and a video that made me cry.

But this morning started out with an unhappy surprise:


It was 7am and only a couple kids were up, quietly playing on the computer. I hear a crash and what sounds like glass and I run to the Living Room. Thankfully no one is hurt. 
Deep breath. 
The computer, however, has been knocked to the floor and is now sitting in a pile if shattered screen. On a Mac, as you know, this doesn't mean shattered monitor this means busted computer. Cue tears. 

The hubs took it into the apple store earlier today and was able to leave it there to be repaired - but until Wednesday I'll be blogging from my phone. Which is not too bad - it just means no links, and no videos or anything fancy like that.

One blessing of starting the day with so much energy is that we got a lot if cleaning done!! I was in mom over-drive mode. It was a really hard morning and I kept asking myself what and I going to turn to now? As my day got more and more difficult, with a huge bruise from a skateboard and a bleeding toe from the office chair and a day that just will not give me a break. 

Another blessing to this day was this moment: 

He is growing up so fast. Speaking so clearly, learning so much. But here, in this moment, he looked like my baby.

The day did (eventually) turn around. I braided Katie-A's hair and we worked on her math, I snuggled with Jojo and we ate ice cream sandwiches on the trampoline. I doodled with Emma and snuggled with Eli and watched football with Daniel (on and off). 

I have a bunch of posts for next week already half-written which I can not wait to finish and a GREAT song all ready to share tomorrow. So I'll see you there.

Friday, November 1, 2013

Why? Part 2: Impatience & stillness

So I've been struggling to work out the why - why don't I come to God more fully? More frequently? Why do I run around with my paper plate snacking on the world when God invites me to the table to eat a meal with him. I've been blogging about it kind of obsessively lately. You can read previous posts here and here

In the glimpses and pieces of this I'm hoping I start to see a bigger picture to what holds me back from coming and being satisfied in God.

Here is one more piece of my answer:

Impatience

It's hard to just be still. It's hard to sit down and really feast on God's word. I'd rather get a quick word here and a worship song there as I dash around my day, not unlike the poor ball in a pinball machine. When I do sit down I struggle with the parade of thoughts that instantly want to march across my brain. It takes patience to let that pass and wait for the calm. 

I struggle to see God at work in me. I tend to see my failure and my flaws instead of God's breathtaking artistry in my soul. I change so slowly. That is hard for me. 

Today I think part of the answer is stillness.

There are some awesome scriptures on simple being still. 

I will quiet you with my love

Stillness. It's the opposite of impatience and it's what I need if I'm going to come.






Why? Part 1 Surrender

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