Friday, May 31, 2013

faith for the waiting

yeah, so life lately has been more than a little crazy...

the roller coaster ride of trying to move has been nuts

and tonight, as I write this, we are still waiting to see how it is all going to turn out

so I just wanted to write, here in this moment, about faith in the waiting.

I'm doing a Bible study about Ruth and I was struck by that moment when Ruth kissed her mother in-law goodbye for the day and said basically "maybe it'll all turn out okay" and she went out and worked hard and along this path of obedience and God directed her steps into the field of Boaz, who God had already prepared and through whom God would provide...

but in the waiting...

in the waiting Ruth had to just put one foot in front of the other

in the waiting Ruth must have had to just trust that one way or another the LORD would provide

in the waiting, there was no lightening bolt of divine direction, just gleaning in the fields, row by row

and she happened to be in the field of Boaz

and Boaz happened to come check on his fields when Ruth was there

and through all of these circumstances God worked a beautiful story of provision and redemption all in the context of something really ordinary and everyday.

It's easy, at the end of a journey to say, Praise the Lord! It all worked out. But in the waiting...

I can say I trust God - actually doing it is another matter. Putting one foot in front of the other, trusting God to close the doors that need to be closed and open the doors that need to be opened. I find myself running ahead, trying to figure out where this whole journey is going or frozen in fear, afraid of taking a wrong step instead of taking one step at a time, trusting God to guide my way.

I want to say "I'm trying to trust God" in this situation but then this morning, it hit me, there is really no middle ground in this, I either trust God or I don't.  It's all that black and white. I may jump from one side to the other, from unbelief to belief, but when the hazy gray comes into focus and I see clearly that I have to choose. I choose to trust. Even when door after door closes. I am choosing to believe that God will be faithful and one way or another He will provide and He WILL lead our family, even in this little-in-the-sceme-of-human-history huge thing in my life.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Summer survival: Day 1

2pm - I am loosing my mind.

Zero time for breakfast.
Epic Tantrums at Target.
Library visits that s t r e t c h my nerves.
Drive by a house. Call a realtor. Leave a message. Again.
Home again. Lunch? Smoothies!!!!

Give me your smoothie earthling!! #greensmoothie #greensmoothiebaby is pitching a fit because mommy is taking too long taking this picture!!

The difficulty with having helper-sisters watching baby brother is that sometimes they get distracted and allow smoothie-baby to walk around on the carpet with no lid on his cup. He dumped the whole thing on the carpet. While the littles were stripping the sheets off of their beds. Again. sigh

9pm - today has gone by so fast.
I have had to be strict but I am reminding myself
this is a transition

I love having them home
as crazy and wild and nerve-destroying as it is
we are family and I love sharing those moments in between
the smiles and the hugs and the random bits of conversation

Last Day of School

First & last days of school
Yesterday was my girl's last day of school!!
Last day of school
I tried to really enjoy the day with just the boys at home. We had a playdate with a little friend, we painted, read stories and generally kept things quiet. Summer is wonderful, it's just a different kind of wonderful. Louder, busier. I love having my helpers at home all day long.
Morning "painting" with my boys    #pictapgo_app It's a let's do anything BUT watch TV kinda' night.
Daddy was gone all night so we made waffles, did a little house-hunting (we are moving when our lease is up month after next) and we kept the TV OFF.  What a great way to spend an evening! It takes a little bit more creativity but when I unplug the television and focus on spending time with the kids doing things we enjoy together and approach it with a positive attitude (remembering what a privilege it is to spend time together - not a burden) it is so worth it.

We have come a long way since the scribbles of baby days...

I'm going to try to keep up with blogging through the summer... posting more to my summer survival series. Like a lot of you I am re-committing myself to making motherhood my #1 priority this summer. No matter what else is going on I want my kids to know that I am 100% percent available to them, stay focused & present and unencumbered & undistracted by electronics.

Well, we're on our way to the Library in a couple minutes! Time to chase down shoes & book bags and head out before the heat rolls in.

What are your plans & goals for summer?

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