Some days are better than others. Today it was particularly less better than the rest. It's been grayish and cold and wet for the last few days. I was sitting on the couch at home, holding the baby, fussing at big brother, feeling like I'm about to loose my mind. I can't seem to get anything done! Then I say "how about we go out?" I quickly throw on something other than my pajamas, big brother slips on his crocs and we are out the door. We head someplace where I can get by with only the couple bucks (mostly in change) that are left at the end of the pay period. I shell out a buck and change for a large sweet tea and with the promise of a cookie before we leave big brother plays with other kids his age and he has a blast. I sit and enjoy a few peaceful moments reading an ebook I downloaded from Kelly Rae Roberts on the Kindle app on my iPhone. The baby starts to cry so I hold him while I read and give big brother a five minute warning. It's not very productive time but I feel a little less insane right now. A little less likely to explode. I brows Instagram on the wifi (I'm completely obsessed) and see photos of other moms with their coffee and their babies and I feel a little less alone. The baby starts to smile and coo, big brother sits down across from me and says "You're the best mom ever".